On the verge of ever falling tears.

I WANT TO SCREAM.

conclusion, if you don't trust me, don't love me.

Yes, that will be my final conclusion.
If you don't trust me, don't love me.
It makes things difficult for both of us.
if to you I'm the kind who's like, such a player,
I'm sorry, no matter how much I try,
I can't change it.
And like Bestie said, it's finally time,
to decide if I want to fall in love,
or withdraw from it.

VAL!

Am I so doubted by you?

Why can't you trust me? I just don't understand. Maybe the problem lies with me. I guess I trust people to easily. Maybe you ain't ready for new love. Maybe it's suffocating to you. Maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. But you've got me thinking about you, but if you ain't ready, then I don't want to fall in love.

PS:I'm just saying how I feel, don't fuss over it.

The same thing over again.

'Cause I hated the heartbreak, the crying and cheating, the fooling around.
Shit, Valerie Lua what are you doing?
See You, I'm going over to CCK now! (:

VAL!

If I should die before I wake.

My bad hair day. HAHA!

Not many nice pics ):
Going over to Bestie's to pass her constuction paper!

Got a job alr, 300/14sessions,

doing with Sher.

I feel like I've become chubbier, shitzxz ):

Sorry dummy, didn't manage to stay awake last night,

too tired alr.

Hahas. Okay, I finished 6 Chwee Kueh.

Blahs, I've been eating like ABCDEFG these few days.

I've been drinking Bubble Tea for 4 consecutive days,

I hope I never grow fat. Haha, fat hope, val :X

Okay laa, see youuuuuuuu!

VAL!

Maybe you don't trust me like I trust you.

Hey people.

Rehearsal today was fine.

Managed to wake up & reach there just in time.

I'm gonna be a nun, how cute.

Went home after that,

173-ed with Joy.

Admiralty later for interview with Bestie.

Bestie I've got so much to tell you):

Hah, maybe to you, I'm that kind of girl.

Absolutely saddened.

VAL!

I'll believe.

Hey people,
I practically did nothing,
but use MSN to call people today,
and talked like mad because this lappie
has a mic installed! hahaha! :D
Bestie called, I wonder what happened..
Will find out from her later, yepyep.
Happy day people,
one week of holidays is almost over.
I wish holidays go on foreverrrrrr :D
ImissmyDummy.
Friday tomorrow.
Cousins asked me out to watch AccuracyOfDeath.
I have an interview tomorrow.
Oh shucks. And I have rehearsal.
Tskkkkkk.
Hahas. Okay, enjoy your day people,
IhavenoideawhatI'mtalkingabout.
Yep. So it's all crap
& I'm sorry if I wasted your precious time.

VAL!

I can't wait 'till it's officially us.

Hello people!
Hmm, these few days have been tiring.
Meet the parents later,
& I've got a rehearsal.
Darn, later they anyhow say.
Hais, anything & whatever laa.
Rehearsals yesterday,
today and tomorrow.
Super sians. Hahas.
Okay, & I'll finish the post off,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO♥,
SEE YOU SOON LAA! (:

Photos.

The day I met Dummy♥ (I know I don't look nice but whatever :D)


Bestie♥ hahas :D


Little Miss Sophisticated (For once people, applaud please!) :P


With Couzie♥ , room 35! :D


Shits, I'm chubby! ): Couzie♥.

More pics next time, I'm in quite a rush!
Plus the rest of the pics all zilian one uh :\

VAL!

Just a little bit longer, longer.

Waiting patiently for that day 'till we no longer have to lie about us.

Tagged by Sherlyn(:

Rules-Blogger who has been tagged has to start with 10 random facts about themselves.
-At the end of the quiz, you have to choose 10 people & tag them about this quiz.
1] I'm quite sensitive.
2] I'm hardly angry:)
3] But when I'm angry I'm nasty :X
4] The first thing I do in the morning is go back to sleep :\
5] I get stomach problems easily.
6] I try not to hold grudges.
7] I love the feeling of freedom.
8] I can be very noisy, and very quiet.
9] The pitch of my voice follows my mood.
10] I love someone :)

I wanna share this quiz with 10 friends :

Want to do then just copy & paste lor :D

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Pictures in the next post!

VAL!

Super expired pic.
I don't even remember when this was taken :X

Hey people! :D

I've FINISHED washing dishes! happy! :D

4hours of KTV with Couzie tomorrow,

Superb, I like :D

Superrrrrr yayness. Heh.

Shall empty my wardrobe for nice (and warm) clothes.

meeting her at 11.40am, PLEASE WAKE UP HOH. LOLS! :D

I need money laa D:

VAL!

Hey peoples,
in Sherlyn's house now! :D
She's using the com, I'm using the lappie.
Good rights. Haha!
So many things happened today,
hahahas.
Sherlyn & ChinAn came over to bake cookies.
For the fun, I guess.
Then ChinAn went off to met her bf,
left me & Sherlyn.
Talk talk talk,
went to her house.
Then currently at her house lor.
I cannot elaborate how much of a mess they made,
oh my goodness laa, MY HOUSE T-T
Haha, I'll go home and CLEAN! :D
Sms-ed my Dummy the whole day (x
Mummy's coming to pick me at 8.45pm (:
See you later, if I'm still alive after cleaning up! :D

VAL!
I hope everything's alright.

When we ride, we ride.

Haha, hello people.
Sorry for those of you who called/sms-ed me,
My hp is out of BATTERY, and I have no CHARGER.
Super sian one laa can.
Hais. I WANT MY HP TO TURN ON!
ON ON ON ON ON! D:
My tcher refuses to give me my report book back.
She insist that my parent must go down & see them.
Madness, you think my mum so free ah.
Hais. I don't even know WHAT I did laa.
I didn't talk back to teachers,
I didn't make noise during class,
I didn't sms during class (not much laa :\)
I didn't totally nv pass up HW.
Stupid teachers, what do you wanttttttt.
Hais. Headache now.
Maybe going to rest soon bah.
PS: I'm not going for class today, sorry!
Blahs. I can't even sign in to MSN.
Kill msn laa. Haha, okayokay,
TAKECARE PEOPLE (:

VAL!

Not in love laa duh.

Hey people, sorry, no pics at the moment.
I'm at my Grandma's house, no MCR.
& my cam's at homeeeeeeee! My cammmmmm ):
Heh. Super bored now,
the show on Disney channel now is...
Mary Poppins. Spercadafragalisticexpialidocious uh.
Hahaha! Peninsula with YTcouzie♥ tomorrow,
I miss SHERLYNlove♥ many many laa! :D
See you on monday okay, you're coming over right! Cookies :D
PS: Great Singapore Sale is coming! ):
I NEED MONEY. HAHAHA!
I will get my money, and shopping trips.
Hoho :D I'm super freaking tiredddddd!
hah, but I think I won't be able to sleep tonight,
after sleeping for 7hours straight -.-
Hahaha :D Okay, stop here.
Pics tomorrow (:

♥VAL!

Tired, yep.

Hello people :)
I just woke up, slept from 9am until 4pm.
Yes, I'm that tired.
Yesterday,
School was super slack, and Dgig was okay.
I was quite tired, but still screamed & shouted.
Went home to bathe & over to Sherlyn's house.
Slacked with her & ChinAn, yeap.
They went to play bball at lamsoon,
and sunshine for dinner.
Slacked around a void deck & asked people
help us go to 7-eleven buy alcohol.
& guess what? He bought Vodka Absolute Mandarin,
so we mixed it with Ribena. Haha!
After slacking awhile,
went to meet Clebin at CCK interchange.
then went to sunshine to eat dinner.
Spent the night walking with a stranger. HAHA!
Stranger uh! No laa JK.
Went to... Pasir Ris.
LOLS. Walked around aimlessly, serious.
1am, went to some coffee shop to eat? lols.
Walked arounddd.
Then halfway through the night,
bought Bacardi Breezer, hoho, very nice.
Then went to some void deck, then playground,
then fell asleep for idk how long at the playground,
woke up, walk here walk there, in some park somemore.
Then took the 1st train to Jurong East,
then to Bukit batok, and then 173 home.
We both fell asleep on the stupid bus,
so waited for it to loop around Clementi interchange,
then still missed my house by 1 stop -.-
Too tired already. Hahaha!
Then came back and sleep for 7hours straight. Haha,
woke up with 11 missed calls and 20 odd messages.
My mum said that I scared the whole world.
Madness.
Hahaha! Okay, class soon.
Aunt coming to pick me up, gotta go get ready.
SEEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

VAL!

Valerie Lua, get a hold of yourself

Smile 'cause I deserve to.

We'll make the great escape.

Many pics today, I'll let them do the talking.

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Random.


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Sherlynlove & Chinan! :D

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Zilian Photos.

When smiles are just a facade.

Yesterday's pics.





My Fav. Picture.

Mummy, Meimei, Me.


Meimei, me, mummy.


Hah, gotcha (:

Now I'll prove to you that madness is in our blood (:





Seriously siao. HAHAHA!
Verity uh, madness laa dey.


Okay, now for the quiz, Sabo-ed by Joy Chua.



1. What age do you wish to marry ?
-When I find my special someone (:

2. What you want the most right now ?
-I want, hehe don't tell you ;D

3. What do you want to be in your next life ?
-I wanna go to heaven alr laa, life is so xin ku.

4. Something to describe yourself .
-I'ma girl.

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true , what would it be ?
-I want whatever I want now ;D

6. What are you afraid to lose now ?
-I'm afraid to lose my sanity ;P

7. Do you believe in ETERNAL love ?
-Nothing is eternal, and forever is bullshit.

8. If you meet someone that you love , would you confess to him/her ?
-Maybe? I'll consider (:

9. If i had a whole room of cash, how would i spend it ?
-I won't need it, (well, maybe I'd need half of it for shopping..) 'cause money won't buy happiness.

10 . What are the requirement(s) that you yearn from the other half ?
-That he must love me. Fullstop.

11.Which type of person you hate most ?
-The kind that makes dumb surveys like these? ;D JK. Hypocrites?

12. So you cherish every of your friendship ?
-Yes, very dearly.

13. Do you believe in God ?
-Yeah.

16. What do you want your friends to be like ?
-I want them to be like themselves (:

17. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-Lawyer or psychiatrist.

18. What is your favourite hobby ?
-Eating, sleeping, SINGING, computer-ing, hahaha ;D

19. If you're feeling low one day , who will you go to ?
-My teddy bear :D

20. How will you feel if a ugly person suddenly strips in front of you ?
-Disgusted? -.-

Instructions :
Remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question, make it total 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list , list them out at the end of this post .
Notify them in their chat box that he/she had been tagged .
Whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.

If
You
Want
To
Do
It,
Go
Ahead (:

Still unsure.

Where are we going today?
I have no idea.
Mummy's scared she gets lost in Msia -.-
Like, okayyyyyy.
Haha. I wanna go shoppingggggggg~

VAL!

Happy holiday.

Hey people,
Happy Holiday! (idk what hol it is today, but..)
Nevermind (x
like whoaaaaa.
I woke up so early on a public holiday.
1st time! :D
hmm, gonna link people now.
Mummy's gonna bring me & Verity to idk where,
but that means...
MORE PICS WITH VERITY! hohoho :D
okay, gonna link people ( & relink people ) now,
CIAO! :D

VAL!

Hey peepos! :D
You know how tiring it is,
doing something you know you have no interest in.
sigh, but I'll dance for the sake of it I guess.
Yep, holiday tmr, outing with mummy & verity, i think.
Hahahas.
sorry peepos, my family's booked me.
YEAP. (:
HAPPY HOLS!


I'm so confused now.
I don't know if you like me.
I don't wanna fall in love with someone
who's not even interested.
I don't think you like me.
Maybe I'm not up to your standards?
Well, Yeah maybe.
I doubt you know I'm talking about you, haha.
Should I like you or not? ):

Hey peepos (:
Today;
Went for meeting, at SENGKANG.
Can you imagine how far.
Omg. Ended at like, 5+?
Late for class, so didn't go. Hehe.
Then went to Grandma's house.
I was rly high okay! YongTing jiejie & Kenneth korkor laa!
Tsk. Make my whole face red. Hais.
Then yeap, at home now lor.
I still don't know if I'm going tmr.
Most likely not, I guess. Hahas.

VAL!

Hey people,
GOOD MORNING! (:
I won't be free today until about, 6.30pm?
Yeap, I'll try my best to answer all calls &
reply all smses before that.
I've got a meeting 'till 4.30pm,
and class 'till 6.30pm.
Go Valerie, you will survive! :X

VAL!

The Bottom
Line Your selfless side needs to get in better balance with your self-oriented side.

In Detail
Your selfless side needs to get in better balance with your more self-oriented side. Have you been helping too many people for too long and neglecting your own needs? The biggest problem with giving all the time is that pretty soon you have nothing left! Putting other people first is getting less and less realistic -- you have got to start conserving your energy for your own needs. Start saying 'no' a little bit more often. It gets easier and easier each time you do it.

Hey people,
I SERIOUSLY THINK MY ATTITUDE SUCKS LIKE
ABCDEFG THESE FEW DAYS ):
blablabla.
I'm tired, maybe I'll bathe & go & sleep? (:
yepyep, I'll do that.
Enjoy your day people! (:

VAL!

PMS, I guess.

If you read this, you'll freaking die cause
some freaking thing will appear beside your bed
at 19347438927hours or whatsover crap &
hack you to death & skin you alive or whatever the thing is.
No, I'll just effing kill you.
Why wasn't I blessed with the gift of reading minds? Why can't I read your mind? I wanna know. I wanna know if I stand any place in your heart. I guess not, know. Oh well.

Yay, happiness.

My new boyfriend uh. :D


My beloved sister. Touch her & you'll die.

Hey peoples,
I finally got my deck ;D
happaye.
& to those of you who are having r/s problems,
Stay happy laa.
Im in no position to give advice at the moment,
in my own opinion.
So yeah, ask if you reallyyyy need it,
I'll still be there to help :)

VAL!

Maybe someday.

Hello people!
I'm PMSing, & so I'm sorry if I have sucky attitude these few days.
My apologies in advance (:
I PASSED MY CHINESE, 35/70. JUST NICE, SWEETSWEET.
HAHAHA! For once know! Damn freaking happy, I can SCREAM.
Mummy's bringing me to Queenstown later, happy!
She agreed to buy my deck for me! :D
DOUBLE HAPPY. BUT. I failed my math, I think.
Miss Sofhia said I didn't pass. Sad okay.
CHEER UP SHERLYN! (:
Okay, this will not be a wordy post, Goodbye! :D

VAL!

I shan't be your burden.

Hey people!
Got back 4 results today.
Very disappointed with all of it.
Sorry for the bad attitude just now,
to whoever I showed it to just now ):
Hais, shan't talk 'bout results.
Went to the auditions, am really nervous to sing.
there was quite alot of people, and singing alone,
really made my voice shake.
Oh wells. We'll see if I get in or not.
Went to make my EZlink after the auditions,
reached home, went out for dinner,
grandma's house & home.
That's all for today, seriously no mood.
If you REALLY wanna know my marks that much,
ask me yourself.


♥VAL!

You know I'd walk a thousand miles.

Hey peeps,
I'm posting in school now (:
Home Ec, and the papers ain't ready.
Had a big lecture for 2 periods,
and now, 2 free periods.
Awesome eh?
Hahaha! V BORED!
Shall go surf the net ~
Sherlyn didn't come today,
currently in a convo (MSN) with her, faith & tina.
Muahaha.
Shen jing bing one laa,
blog again later (:

I wonder what It'll be.
VAL

Your Heart is Red and Orange

Your heart is enthusiastic and optimistic. You are creative, witty, and brilliant. You bring levity and happiness to relationships. You're good at loving people for who they are.

What Are the Colors of Your Heart?

Hello people!
GOODBYE TO MID-YEAR EXAM PHOBIA.
GOODBYE TO BURNING MIDNIGHT OIL.
GOODBYE TO STRESSING OUT.
& HELLO TO HOLIDAY MODE! :D
Vivo-ed with Wesley & Friend (sorry I didn't get to find out your name!)
today, watched Speed Racer.
Nice show, I like :D
They very mean okay, keep 'you very short leis!'
or 'too short laa' or 'shortie!'.
Mean asses. HAHA.
Went to queenstown after that for Idk what,
sat awhile, & then went home.
We walked alot today, but I can't rem whr.
hahahas :X STML? I refuse to admit. Poor memory only laaaaaa.
Haha. Okay, I'm very tired,
shall go & Bathe.
See you! :D (No pics today, I just realised.)

VAL!

Town today with Sherlyn :D
She made me high okay, I looked so mad :X
*Pictures @ sherlyn's blog*
Maybe some things really ain't as simple,
or some people for that matter.
Whoever I deemed simple
seem to be so complicated,
using a facade to hide the complications.
Argh, maybe I'm thinking to much.
Anw, Sherlyn got her thingthings,
& I hope she's happy with it :D
Your tote bag uh, & my flipflops.
Realised that I want alot of things. Ugh.
Oh well, that's all for today.


♥,VAL!

In Sherlyn's house now.
That mad woman made me run around her estate like a idiot!
LOL. Blah, sweating like nobody's business.
Town later with her, she's gonna get her stuff.
apparently she's bathing, so yeah.
Okay, update later,

VAL!

It's always times like these when I think of you,
& I wonder if you ever think of me.


♥, VAL!

Muahahaha :X

Hello people!

Currently; Msging wesley while he's in tuition :\

He's mean okay, meanie dinosaur.

"Shortie" this "Shortie" that.

Hahaha! Lalala. Lets see, I'll start from Friday.

Friday,

Lit exam was okay, D&T exam was a completely gone case.

After that, went to somerset with faith & tina,

& didn't skate much due to gastrits.

Didn't touch food either, all that went into my stomach th whole day

was food beverages. Felt so tired. Blahs.

Then went to church at night, then home, chat on phone w dino & sleep.

Saturday,

woke up at 10am, chat on msn, went for ballet, & went to grandma's hse.

Seriously slacky day, bcos I didn't have the motivation to do anything.

Super boring luh! Watched less than half of Cinderella II & went home.

Chatted on the phone with Dino & Clebin, & then Dino fell asleep

while he was on the phone. Dino & Zhu! LOLS.

Went to sleep around midnight.

Today;

Woke up at 6.50am something?

went to church, taught the children how to make a flower.

They're super cute okay! Muahaha.

Then gave 2 Flowers to my mummy,

Happy Mother's Day mum! Love ya always! <3

After church, mummy drove down to gosports to see if it was open,

& it wasn't, so she said tmr if she had the time.

My mum's awesome right :D

went somewhere (idk where) to eat,

& then home.

Was smsing Dino all the way from after church.

Haha :P

Okay, stop here!

VAL!

Free-flowing tears.

Well yeah,
maybe we have loads of differences,
& knowing you, you don't trust people easily.
Well, maybe I've lost that trust.
Idk what I should be doing now.
I've tried too, & well,
maybe you'll be happier with people
who have the same likings as you.

I don't feel like blogging anymore, totally lost the mood.

VAL!

So that's what the song really means?
后来，终于在眼泪中明白，一些人，一旦错过就不再。

后来，终于在眼泪中明白有些人，一旦错过就不再。

Hey people (:
2 more papers to go & I'm free :D
But I think... Muahahaha!
I'm free alr :P
Blog later, I'm not really in the mood. :)

VAL!

two servings of fruit & vegetable :D

Muahaha.

The title's plain rubbish, seriously.
I'm bored, let's talk about today! :D

Today, 8th May 2008, Mathematics Paper I & II.
Obviously flunking it will be Valerie Lua, 2Sapphire.
It was nerve wrecking, and braincell-killing & blah&gah.
Yeah, stuff like that. I feel so stupid, only remembering
all the formulae after the exam has ended.
*Valerie Lua, please bang the wall.*
Let bygones be bygones! :X (rubbish).
I think I can say the exam has ended, because
I don't think I'll study for the next few.
Or maybe, it isn't possible to study for the next few :D
(excuses -.-)
Hmm, went to Sherlyn's house after exam,
changed, went to lot1 for I-have-no-idea-why,
walked around, went back to her house,
fell asleep, (ChinAn sleeps in real funny positions!)
woke up, & realised that it was 5+ in the evening.
Awesome right? hahaha! & I think I'm turning into a pig,
eat, sleep, eat more, sleep more. Blah.
Very good, Im so bored.
All I can think of is,
"my boyfriend will own a Lamborghini with a chauffer",
& cannot stop laughing.
For the people who don't get it:
A Lamborghini is a sports car, 2 seater.
If the chauffer drives, & your boyfriend is the passenger,
it looks gay, & where are you gonna sit?
Aww, after I give this explaination, its not funny alr.
HAHAHA.

VAL!

I'm not stupid

I'm not stupid ;D

Try this out! :D The results aren't really accurate though, or at least I don't think so.

Difference between dramatic and bimbotic.

Being dramatic is overreacting.
Being bimbotic, on the other hand, is more like,
"what? buffaloes have wings?!"
I feel so lethargic. Hahahahahahaha.
Maybe I'll sleep more :\
Great, I'm not allowed to go swimming just in case I drown.
I'm not allowed to exercise, too.
Very awesome. Double happiness.
Stupid stomach. Haha.
Math exam tomorrow, I'm scared. Very scared.
I think I'll chiong midnight oil again, for math.
Buahahahaha. My stomach's affecting my brain, like ohmygod.
Better stop here. Bye!

VAL.

Headaches and heartaches.

I haven't seen you in a thousand million donkey years ):

& YOU! cheer up luh huh! :D

Gone crazy.

3 things that pissed me off today:

1. Someone (you know who) called me a bimbo when I was walking out of school. I can't express how irritated I feel when people call me a bimbo. Bimbo means pretty and stupid (or big boobs and stupid) and I am neither, so the conclusion is that I am not a effing bimbo so shut your bloody trap. Maybe I'm being over sensitive about this but I really hate it okay.

2. I had sudden appendicts and slight gastrits and it hurt like nobody's business. Its seriously pain, I couldn't stand properly, and I couldn't eat, because my stomach wasn't accepting any food.

3. I can't imagine people could actually act so nice in front of others and yet talk behind their backs, and they don't even have the rights to.

Okay, I'm done with complaining :D
Cross my fingers uh! hahaha :)
I'm not feeling too well, shall blog later or so.

VAL!

What mellow days.

Everyone should lighten up their mood a little,
everyone's so mellow, it's crazy!
I think everyone's overly stressed due to examinations,
but don't go into depression mode,
I can't survive in that kind of environment!
So CHEER UP PEOPLE! :D

& WESLEY IS A SUPERSOTONG :D

I'm seriously lazy to blog, & it's dying again anw.
haha! But oh well.
These few days have been extremely tiring due to the exams,
but I'm in no position to complain since everyone's taking it.
Geography paper tomorrow, but I'm absolutly pigging around,
because basically, I'm more interested in the computer.
who in their right mind would be interested in exams, anyway.
I haven't decided what subject combinations I want.
I seem like one of the only ones who want to take literature.
Is it really difficult? Because I only see people complaining,
"history's so difficult!" & "geog's so difficult!",
but I haven't heard anyone saying "lit's so difficult!".
Hahaha what crap.
I think the only thing I can remember myself saying today is
"I'm sorry I didn't hear you, because my ear only takes in factual information".
OHMYGOODNESS i think I better stop blogging before I go bonkus.

VAL!

Hey people,
not in the mood. NEXT DAY OKAY! :D
I'm sorta busy. hehs.
Boy, I think I love you.
VAL!